Thursday, April 13, 2006

It's April 13th...

I still hear the echoes...
far...but very clear...
"boom....boom..." and my head is spinning....
"boom...boom"
my heart is racing....
A long whistle....then "booom"
A sigh of relief...
A look of disbelief....
A tear...a child's cry....
"boom....boom"...so regular...
A few bullets in between...
"boom....boom"
the play in that underground place...
"boom....boom"
the blond hair of our neighbour's daughter....
the ball....
the war game...
the wooden "klashinkov"
and the sand bags.
"boom....boom"
the fear...
the sense of doom...and absurdity.
"boom...boom"
the speeches...
the cause...the ever changing cause...
the enemy...the ever changing enemy...
"boom...boom"
The martyrs...
pictures...on an old wall...in a dirty street...
"boom...boom"
the years of waiting...and waiting...
"boom...boom"
the line infront of the bakery...or the gas station...
"boom...boom"
And then...the silence.
cut by deep scared breaths...
blank faces...
sleepy eyes....
"el haya'a khalas..." my mom's voice announces.
The awful music tone plays in my brother's radio..."Hona maktabo el-ta7reer...."
I still hear the echoes....
far...but clear....
"Tinzakar...ma tin3ad..."

9 comments:

Mirvat said...

3anjad tinzakar matin3ad

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rouba said...

i remember that horrible 'flash' music on the radio that elevated anxiety

Anonymous said...

is this about the war?

hashem said...

Rouba,
I hated it alot....that awful tone....
When I went back home, I was surprised to see all lebanese still live in the "news flashes", and breaking news....
It was too much..

yes, anonymous...the lebanese war...

hashem said...

Rouba,
I hated it alot....that awful tone....
When I went back home, I was surprised to see all lebanese still live in the "news flashes", and breaking news....
It was too much..

yes, anonymous...the lebanese war...

hashem said...

Rouba,
I hated it alot....that awful tone....
When I went back homw, I was surprised to see all lebanese still live in the "news flashes", and breaking news....
It was too much..

yes, anonymous...the lebanese war...

Anonymous said...

very cool blog, hope you are following ur dream...I miss Leb :(

Coco said...

Tenzakar ma ten3ad.
Yalla April 26 is almost here, celebrating the 1 year anniversary of the end of an awful era (raw7a bala raj3a) and hoping for real "siyedeh, 7orriyeh, este'lel" (sovereignty, freedom and independence) for Lebanon.